Last day of 2004

Time really flies very fast, just a blink of eye, it is already last day of 2004. Too many things happen in 2004.

First I finally had a stead at January and we knew each other in net. I liked him because he gave me a good impression and it just melted my heart. I also don't really know why I liked him. He was not that handsome, not that smart. But he was a caring person. We sometime quarreled but he would always let me win. He treated me with lot of care and dote me a lot. I would never forget him. However, after 6 months he was so heartless. He dumped me because of freedom and wanted to enjoy his single life. Why he wanted be with me and let me fall deeply for him if he actually wanted to enjoy his single life. Sobs...

Second, I got my o'level result. Although I got 2A1s, 3A2s and 1C5 for these subjects, I still failed my whole o'level as I failed my english. If I passed my English my result will be very very good. I can even go to JC. Haha... no choice, my English is always so poor. My dad asked me to retake my English O'level as he believed I can make it.

Third, I entered into Singapore Poly, Property development and facilities management. As my English failed I can't enter to the course I want, Business. Sobs.... hahaha!!! in the end still like the course I choose, as the course is interesting and fun. The lecturers are good and friendly, caring too... I also have 2 best friends in my class, GY and SY. hehehe... my classmates are abit childish and noisy sometime but kind hearted and bring laughter to the class. Still got about 2 and a half year in poly. I want to enjoy it. I also join Social Dance as a CCA, all my sec sch friends are so shock.

Fourth, I keep falling for someone that starts to ignore me. Every body will say I silly. I know. But love jus can't be control. I know most of the guys are lier and they just sweet talk to you. This year I suffer alot of heart breaking and failure. I really hope to find a true luv. Will it be he?

Wishes:
1. Score well for my exams and tests...best is all distinction
2.Find my true love and have all the romantic and meaning moments with my Mr Right
3. Everybody around me must be happy
4.World peace
5.Parents will be with me forever ...best is let them win 4D or TOTO
6.My brother.... study well...find a gf bahx
7.I want to be happy

Christmas Eve

Wat a lonely Christmas Eve I have.... after sch went home then slept for the whole afternoon. Hehe... At nite stayed at home chat online and watch tv. Kinda bored rite. I wan to go out and enjoy but wan to find someone tht I can celebrate with... I dun wan to disturb my friends as all of them has their own programme. Haha... every year my Christmas Day is the same... spend the whole day at home.
Day dreaming time... if I have a bf wat will it be like? We will have a dinner and then go for a walk in Orchard Road. We will go somewhere with beautiful scenery and count down together. Exchange Christmas present. Then enjoy the moment we spend together....hahaah......finish of day dreaming.
Wish for this year Christmas is find a partner....haha!!! My dad allows me to have a bf..the only condition is dun fall too deep hehe...

Last Christmas I gave u my HEART but the very next day u gave it away...

Wat I wan to say...

First week of school already finished in the blink of an eye. I feel tht this semester I dun really can score well as most of the modules are language and presentation. Cuz my English is really poor. Now I need to face with new lecturers, some are nice, some look fierce. Will this semester be as fun as the last semester?

I saw a photo tht I should not see in friendster and tht is my ex with his new gf. They look sweet. They called each other dear dear. So envy. Maybe there is something in tht girl I dun have so he like her. Maybe he has found his true luv.... hope tht both of them can be together forever. Truly, I was really angry and kinda sad when I saw this photo. But as wat everybody said past jus let it passed dun think so much. U will nv noe tht u can find someone better than him. So now i jus dun wan to think so much. I need to lead a happy life whether I single or attached.

For me, I dun think I can trust guys anymore. Believe in guys, I tend to feel sad. Like them will feel hurt. So why not remain single to enjoy my peaceful life. I jus need to wait patiently for my Mr Right to appear... the guy tht can let my heart beat fast.

I like a Christmas song alot. The title is 'Last Christmas'. I really in luv with this song when I first heard in the gym. I want to find this song so much. Dunnoe is fate or wat, one of my friends sent 2 Christmas songs to me, and one of the songs is wat i wan so much. Why I like abt this song? Almost everything....the tune...the beat.... the lyric...
Tell u something this is my third times repeat typing this blog. Dunnoe why everytime press wrong key and all the thing is gone.

School reopen!!

Lazy to wake up when my alarm clock rang as I had slept late last night. Actually must wake up at 8am but end end 8.15am. Just slept for another 15mins, I also feel satisfy. Haha... I am just like a cute little pig *oink oink. After changed my attire n packed my bag, I found tht i got 15mins more free time. So I turned on the computer to surf the net.
Look at the rocket clock, make sure tht I will not late for sch today. I was just so happy to go to sch. I already waited for one mth. All my friends will say I am crazy. Taking Lrt n Mrt to SP... it took me abt 3omins plus... I met a classmate in the Mrt but both of us nv even talk to each other. Haha... Btw I am a friendly person, not tht cold.
I also had 2 presentations for just first day of sch. One is a short talk abt a trip to east coast park n the other is abt personal financial planning. I very scare of presentation as I really have stage fright. I will just shiver n nervous all the way. I dun really have any confidence as my english is really very poor n I can't speak fluent english. But when I start one sentence I will continue to say with confidence this is wat my friend said....but I still happy.
Overall, I happy to go to sch.... not to look for handsome guys but to study. Gd new got my Law of contract exam result, I score 94%. hehe....

A Fruitful Saturday!

Lalala....Voyage...my sms ringtone... it was from 'A'. I woke up at 10am today to me it was early as I slept late last nite. She told me to go to gym at CCK, 11.30am. My bro n his friends also wanted to go gym... so four of us went to take a cab to there...cost me $3.60..hehe.. I paid for it.
Dunno whether izzit bad luck or wat.. the instructor in the gym kept on scolding us even it was not our fault. He really spoiled my mood. I really wanted to complain abt him. He was jus unreasonable. He like to scold kids n young people but only treat the people who look fit n mature gd. It really sound unfair. My bro n his friends now dun like to go gym, all because of him. Hai...
After exercise we had a hot bath n went to Lott to have a delicious lunch... We ate western food... Although it was expenisve but worth it. We had a great conversation to... then SHOPPING TIME.
Later I went to my grandma's house with my bro to deliver cake. The mrt is full of people, we needed to stand from CCK to Simei really a long journey. When reached there, both of us were tired n hungry. Hehe... my grandma so gd... she cooked porridge for me n fried rice for my bro. I feel glad when my grandma praised me tht I had growth up...hehe... I luv my grandma .. muackz

Give up

I already gave up him as I dun noe whether izzit worth. Kinda wan him to be my bf, hai.... time will solve everytime this is always wat people said. He jus ignored me even though he said he like me. He said my friends felt tht he was hurting me n he was like a bastard. He felt tht he was like a bad guy n wan me to find someone else. Truly I like him but maybe we dun have faith. To me he is not bad.... I really hope to have a bf for me to lay on. Sometime really feel tired about it. Maybe reopen sch can make me feel better. As I luv study n study can make me happy. I can put all my concentration on studies n not luv issues. Hope I can find my Mr Right as wat other said my life is still a long way to go.

Hurt

Why why.........he went out with his friends, his godsister n not me..... Wat am I to him? Izzit a toy or a fool. It hurt me alot. I jus like a fool. He nv put me in his heart neither in his mind. I am jus an extra. Nothing different as a "********". Free find me not free hackcare me. Why he nv care about my feeling? why? I miss him so much, go out with me izzit wan his life. I noe I am ugly. If u dun wan me jus say why make me suffer so much. Why????
Sobz :(~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Pool Game

Oh... am I addicted to pool? Hehe... I dun really noe. I jus noe tht everytime when I hit the ball into the hole I will jump up n down. I feel tht I am jus like a kid... a little bit of achievement I will jus feel contented. This is the third time I play pool, this game is not tht easy... I need time to practice it...hehe...
Today first time meet my "councilor"... almost everyday I will call him n talk to him. I told him all my happiness n sadness. Sometime he also sing a song for me before I sleep. He is a nice guy but not attached. First impression of him, he is short. Hahaha....am I bad... talk to him I feel happy. He taught me how to play pool. In the end I still so lousy. Hehe.. sobx.. I also injured my little finger as I kept hitting on the table. Glad to noe him!!

K box...Lalala

Lalala... Finally can go k box with my friends. All my friends enjoy singing, it is really fun. We last minute asked a guy to go with us... I wasted so much saliva n my hp batteries to ask him to join us. Although he nv sang tht much we still enjoy. This is the first time I met this guy but I chat with him quite a long time in phone. He can say a nice guy n like to care a lot about other. He like to give me lot of miss calls. Sometime I will feel irritating about it, on the other hand it feel good when people noe ur presence. First impression, he has a good boy look. I and him can be good friends..hehehe.....Overall, all of us in K box were so high when we sang the songs....sometime even use shout. Haha....

However, I can't really enjoy it as something seem missing. My mind jus preoccupied with thoughts... all the sad memory n guys tht I wish to see... I miss a person, almost 28days nv see him. The feeling is bad. I think he will nv noe tht. I really hope tht he can talk to me more, sms me more, let me feel tht I am presence in his mind n heart...ask me out too... I waiting n waiting for these. Do he know about it?

I hate liar!!!

Thousand of needles poked my heart when I received a sms tht..... "I found a long last gf finally n she worked at the same place as me"..... This sms is from my last ex. On tht time he broke up with me because he wanted to be single in order to enjoy his freedom. Now he said he attached. Do u think he is a liar? He really big liar. After breaking up with him, I was under depression still now. I only can be happy when I concentrate on my studies n make myself busy. I very scare of BGR n not really can trust guys tht much. So when guys like me I rejected them. Now I find a guy tht I like.."boy".. maybe cuz of my past relationship, I become more emotional n wan to have more attention, care, concern n luv from him... even though we are now jus friends. Sometime I will scold him as hate to be leave alone. However after tht I will feel guilty n said sorry to him. Lucky he nv hate me. He tried to understand me n nv blame me tht I was irritating n suddenly show my temper. I hope tht I can be with him. All this must depend on fate as well as both of us..so let the fate decide whether can we be together. If we can't to be together, I jus can concentrate on my studies n tried to strive the best result. The best is all AD.
Happy news... I got my poly exam results... ALL AD...hehe yeap... next semester I will strive hard again to score better :)

A Trip to EAST COAST

It was fun n tired day for me. I really enjoy very much. This trip was a gathering of my secondary sch friend. We met each other at mrt station n waited for a free shuttle bus at Bedok mrt station. My friends and I really had lot of patience as we waited for about 1 hr but tht bus still haven arrived. In the end all of us gave up n took a cab to east coast. Hehe.....
Haha..... All of us brought some food for "pinic" Me = cakes.... S = bread with ham n tuna.... Z = biscuit n tibits.... A = Yam cake.... the rest brought drinks.... Yumppi Yump... Saliva dripping... we chatted and we ate so warm.... with the beautiful scenery n the melodious music from the wave....... relax >_<
We went to rent a bicycle for $5 per day. Cheap rite!!! The aunti said is holiday offer.....hehe..maybe she wan to attract more customers to rent her bicycles. Athough her bicycles seat are nt tht good but the speed of the bicycles are fast for 2 wheels. Z forgot how to ride 2 wheels bicycle due to long time nv cycle so we persuaded her to rent 4 wheels bicycle.... She felt tht it was really embarrassing but for me i felt tht as long as she could cycle with us and had fun...she no need to scare about other opinions. We cycled for about 4 hours, it was really shiok n fun......I like to be the last one to cycle n then speed up the bicycle to overtake others....I like the wind blowing against my face and my hair was flying while I was cycling.
A wanted to practice free hand for cycling n fell down from the bicycle n injured her knee..... frightened me sia as I witnessed the whole incident... I quickly cycle to her n took out my water bottle n washed her wound. I tried to stop her from bleeding but can't. No choice!!! We needed to help her to plaster first then later see how... When we cycled to Mac, she still bleeding n we tried to check whether 7 eleven got sold any first aid... Bad luck!!!! they nv sold anything for first aid but jus plaster.... I jus wanted to buy something to stop her from bleeding.... No choice!!!! she used the bandana to tied round her wound.
Haha..... we also cycled until we lost the sight of our 2 friends... so worry lei -.-" dunnoe wat to do.... we waited n waited still couldn't see them from far.... in the we cycle back to find them but no sight of them too... Izzit we cycled too fast or wat... I also dunnoe >_<>
Cheese!!! 1! 2! 3! take...chit kiat! hehehe.......we took lot of photos...our group n the beautiful scenery.... all the chio bu hehe....
After cycling, we stroll of the beach n i used my leg to write some words...hehe... wat izzit.... I luv *** *** ** ** hahaha....
It is so enjoyable n all of us jus can't stop laughing for the whole day..... overall I believed tht we had spent our day fruitfully hehehe........no waste of time......