NP Idol

Yesterday went to NP to see their NP Idol Concert. Actually I went there was not to see the concert but jus to support my friend, Sherri. She was the member of the concert's organization. She in charge of lighting. The concert was totally the same as Singapore Idol. After auditions and prelimary round, 10 contestants were in the final.There were telephone number to call and vote for ur favourite contestants too. They sang quite well...all the contestants got their own fans and supporters...the atmosphere was good. I really enjoyed myself. Too bad I was tired so went of after all contestants finish singing. Haha... they sang well...look handsome and pretty too..can see all of them put alot of effort inside. Got one girl sang FIR song,Lydia...her pitch was too high tht everybody cover their ears...Another girl, she sang well but too bad her appearance was bad...she nv wore proper attire and nv stood straight...it really nv give audience a good impression or capture their attention... Got a guy name Irwin, 17m..he attract lot of girls as well as guys...everybody said that he is very handsome and cute..he got alot of supporters...he sang well too especially Lin Jun Jie song..he sang chi ban on tht day..no nice...his charming eyes...wow....haha... i think alot of girls really fall for him bahx... he won the NP Idol.
The refreshment was delicious...jus a blink of an eye all the food and drinks had already finished...
Lastly...i also saw a guy tht I met last time...it was really coincidence tht I saw him...both of us was shock......

Studies..Badminton..Mum's Birthday..Daddy's luv..moi pro n luv..councilor

So tired for the past few days, busy doing all my tutorials and projects. Hehe.... on the same time I also slack abit n also tried to make more new friends. This week I will be quite busy...need to practice my social dance for CFP n meet my friends to NP concert n go back to sec sch with my friends to take her o'level cert...so on.....busy rite..but I still will stay contact with anybody who wan to find me. I not like others..when busy u sms him or her...she of he jus dun reply....tht really not gd..

Play badminton with my guy friends at BPCC on last Sunday quite fun, although I not tht pro in badminton. Do u believe tht I dun noe how to start ball? So my friend, Edward needs to teach me...but I still dun noe how to start ball...After that we got play match...hehehe...Quite long I nv saw Edward n Lin Cheak le....with them I feel happy as they treated me well and with them I feel comfortable..it jus gave me a feeling of the moment the 3 of us had spent during sec sch...it was really memorable...miss it so much. Edward n Lin Cheak still the same old them...like to challenge with each other almost everything. This time Edward won...he really good in badminton n defeated Lin Cheak...I think he sure happy bahx..hehe... They are guys tht really treat me as who I am n not like a toy.

Hehe.... after the badminton, I needed to rush back home before my dad woke up as later I needed to go out with them to celebrate my mum birthday.... Hehe.... however they postpone the birthday celebration to the next day... At nite we went to Tangmah Jurong and ate our dinner... so delicious...as it was my favorite food..... the chilli fish n vege... I ate 2 bowls of rice. My mum treated us this dinner as it was her birthday. Tell u something, my mum seldom use her own money to treat us anything de....
I feel tht my dad really dote my mum alot. As he bought a new hp for her although it is jus a 100+hp. He nv scolded my mum, when her previous hp was stolen by someone in Bugis. Yesterday my father also came back at nite to celebrate my mum birthday...this time got birthday cake...wish my mum happy birthday...let her strike 4D or TOTO...let her be prettier...n healthy

Finally, my mind nv keep thinking of guys and bf... I am more focus in my studies. Guys jus like to use me to make themselves happy, like a toy. Hai.... Why they nv stand into my shoe at all? I so miserable...even more than them...but they only think of their own needs, happiness and satisfactory. I jus dun dare to fall for anybody...as guys will tend to leave when u start to like them...or they will use ur feeling to take advantage of u.. Good guys are hard to find le...really hard to find...true luv tooo....
My "councilor" really treats me very gd..n I trust him alot.. He is the only one tht make me feel tht someone really care for me..as no matter how sick he is, how drunk n tired he is...he will talk to me n make me happy..listen to my grandmother's talk n problems...even I repeat alot of time..he will answer all my stupid qns n give me answers n advises...he so gd rite..too bad he not attach..n I am too young for him. When I need him he sure will reply immediately, no matter how busy he is... not all guys will do it rite?
I have try to stop liking anybody le....Victor, Shine, Pisces, on n on.....they are guys appear in my life for awhile n will vanish after awhile...now all of them are jus friends to me...I wun think of the outcome but jus think of how to make myself happy.

5th day of 2005

It is already a new year but I still live in my past. When can I escape it? My mind just want a bf but I have forgotten that I should fall for a person before I can find a bf. Maybe he is right, I still uncertain about relationship. I just search blindly for a bf and never care about other people's feeling. It really sound selfish. I very scare of lonely, so I afraid people tend to leave me after awhile. Hai.... it always happen. At first the person will contact u everyday after a week or more...the person will just ignore you. I just want to find someone to love me and I love him. Do you think is simple? However it is not that simple as u think. Now I just think of concentrating on a guy and just day dream that he is my bf. As maybe I will feel much more better and can concentrate on my studies. hahaha but it really sound stupid. That guy maybe will just ignore me...I dun mind.

Today social dance I feel that my dancing is so suck as I really very clumsy. I just can't dance with a partner. Stress when I am dancing. My partner also never comes for lesson for weeks. I think of joining another CCA which is do with sport but I want a friend to accompany me. If anyone want to join CCA that do with sport, can you contact me.

sentence for today: 'love is something which you always can't understand what it is"

Countdown

Standing alone among the crowd, I was so lonely. Count 10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1.......Happy New Year. I just can't enjoy the happiness. I just feel sad and empty.